Reality vs Fantasy..A Look inside Kat's Mind

  Yes, even I, a person who laughs at the world, who see's half full instead of half empty have my days when the darkness flows into my head and my world and takes over.  I am seeing dark, fleeting shapes that have the appearance of cats, humans and ??  Sometimes, I feel as though I am being called to leave with the tall, dark human shape but I know that it is not a good presence so I stay.  Is this real or is it just a hallucination of a tired, sick mind?
I am a believer of God, His Son, and I trust and believe in the Holy Word.  I have not been on a desert island and know about the t.v. shows, "Ghost Adventures", and others like this.  It seems like there are quite a few on lately and they are quite popular.  I have even gotten into watching them and liked them.  Then, I remembered about my beliefs.  In Luke 15:10, we read, "Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth." The Bible doesn't say that the angels rejoice, although I'm certain they do. It says that there's rejoicing "in the presence of the angels." I believe this refers to Christians already in Heaven, i.e., the family in Heaven.
God has given us strong warnings in the Bible on the issue of whether or not we should attempt to contact the dead or other spirits (i.e. angels, saints, deceased family members or friends, etc). He also addresses the issue of reincarnation.  His commands to us on these issues are unambiguous.  Reincarnation is a fairy tale, and we should make no attempts whatsoever to seek contact with spirits (except God himself).  That includes deceased relatives, friends or anyone else including "saints" and the Virgin Mary. God clearly tells us that it is not possible for us to contact our deceased loved ones, and that there are great spiritual dangers lurking for those who attempt to do so.
In the past few decades, there has been an explosion of interest in communicating with the dead, and with other spirits. Two recent examples of this in America are the television shows Beyond, which is hosted by James Van Praagh, and Crossing Over which is hosted by John Edward. Another example where millions of people are being deceived by very convincing spiritual apparitions, and real miracles, are the alleged Marian apparitions that are occurring all over the world.  Those who are involved in these kinds of practices don't understand (or are intentionally ignoring) the great spiritual risks they are taking.
For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not any thing, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten. Also their love, and their hatred, and their envy, is now perished; neither have they any more a portion for ever in any [thing] that is done under the sun. . .Ecclesiastes 9:5-6 (KJV)
And, so, believing this with my whole heart and soul, first, why do I watch that un-Godly programming?  I know it is dangerous to view, I know that things like this bother me mentally, maybe more so than others.  I watched a movie called "It" and to this day, I am terrified about things relating to the movie.  And, that was "make-believe".  You can imagine how reality affects me.
My life has become unreal, my dreams are taking over the days